shut the fuck up. this is what i want to say to the world too many times. sometimes the night is black but last night it was navy blue and the moon was spit out of the earth over minneapolis buildings, the moon was maroon. leave me alone. i want to be swallowed up by clouds on a winter night and i want to return to the earth as snow, you will find my brown eyes in a snowflake and my hands will be lost in a snowman made by drunken men. don’t try to get to know me. in wyoming forest fires happen all the time, they leave hillsides grey and trees become skeletons and ghosts, we drove past one when i was ten years old and i’m becoming a forest fire at eighteen years old. stop. leave me alone. i am an avalanche and i will smother you. you will freeze until your fingers and toes fall off. i’m warning you this time. there is only one person who has come out of this natural disaster alive, he’s the definition of love and he is the smell of spring and fall, and he’s kept me safe, he’s kept me from bursting into the sky like gunfire. but i’m warning you, there are some days i need silence. sometimes i don’t other people to get to know me. i will only be a hurricane in your lifetime. there and then gone.