i hid all the mirrors

in fear of punching

them all in.

i sunk into

a winter jacket

as girls, boys

stared at me,

i’m afraid of 

what they see

in me.

and then i said

hello, and my

voice wasn’t mine,

and i fought

back tears as

i walked

down the

stairwell

and 

god knows

when this

feeling

will 

end